I haven't been blogging for a while. I guess I've been caught up with life and the general tediousness of it. That's the life of a BA (I noticed I posted about BA a long while back and that subject is appropriately long to require another post).
Anyway I woke up around 5am feeling blah and a quick Google search revealed how successful some of my peers have become - further enhancing my state of blahness. I guess that kind of success seems almost reachable if I chose not to jump off that speeding train heading for career success city.
Anyway, Google also revealed that some peers, no less deserving (my view, not society), have seemingly made poor progress in the job market. I felt kind of sad for them as I know how brutal it is for the self-esteem. Maybe it is for the better that I'm no longer in it and seeking to climb that highest mountain. What does it all mean? Is it for money, for status, for a personal sense of achievement?
I have not much money, status, or personal sense of achievement relative to those successful peers. I think I'm not of that calibre and perhaps it's fine to admit it - being lousy and all (though objectively probably not that lousy - or so I hope).
I know such things are inconsequential at one's deathbed (I'm morbid like that), but it does not prevent me from fretting over it. Perhaps I should take pleasure in my general slackness and think about how I'm going off to piano lessons in a couple of hours while the rest of humanity trudges to work.
To off peak traffic and non-office attire (if only for one day).
