Stage 2 and Onwards

Ah, I haven't blogged in a while.  I have graduated and have been conferred my degree along with the rights, responsibilities and privileges attached.  I did the required photo-taking, hat-throwing and polite-clapping.  

There, this ends yet another leg of my overpriced education.   

2009 is going to be a year of pondering and deciding.  I'm have been 'hanging out' and will continue to be doing so for the next few months until I start graduate school (once again).  I've always been more of a thinker than a doer.  Graduation school probably suits me more in this manner.  I can continue to live in my own bubble world of ideas and concepts that most people do not care much about.  Well, I get to be the brains for humanity or, in all likelihoods, be a slave for publication.  Ah, or maybe... graduate school is where they lock up useless bums and give them a sense of purpose instead of setting them free to wreck havoc upon banality of reality.

Whatever.  I get to go back to Singapore to find my acupuncturist in another attempt to 'fix' my bad liver.  It's not the alcohol.  Really.  Why does no one believe me.  I am pretty sure I drink more apple / grape juice than alcohol.  Anyway, I'll probably spend long hours wandering the streets where my friends toil in corporate buildings earning their living and becoming self sustainable.  I will try to drown my sorrows drinking mocha frappuccinos and delude myself that freedom of thought is of greater value than money.  Ahh.. the sweet scent of money, when will I ever feel your dirty crinkly love again?

Of values and life, of wants and desires, of needs and longings.  Where is the fine balance?  Why must one always give up something for another?  It is a life of limited resources and limited time.  Of the choices we must make and responsibilities we must take.  The burden of growing up.

AWARE Saga

It is 3:08am on a Saturday morning and I am actively following the AWARE EGM in Singapore on 3 websites.  ARGH!  I so wish that I am in Singapore right now so I can be in the midst of all the happenings.  Everyone else I know seems rather apathetic to this!  Why!  

I want to know what happened!!  I really hope someone managed to sneak in a video camera to record the EGM.  Singapore seems strangely exciting.

Of religion

These days, I have a tendency to use the words 'I' and 'blasphemous' in the same sentence.  Since there is apparently no purgatory (depending on religious views), I seemed destined for some horrid fiery place filled with smoke and boiling lava.  

Being the practical person that I am, I think I will probably confess to some religion because the expected value of believing in 'some' religion (if it is true) is higher than not believing (see Pascal's Wager).  Anyway, it seems that as long as you believe moments before death (or maybe even after death, before the golden heavenly gates), the religion benefits will kick in.  This is unlike human earth aka reality where you have to wait for weeks before your insurance gets approved.  It is a really good bargain for I heard that heaven has streets paved with gold and diamonds and lots of free food.  Points up to religion for feeding my hungry self!  God sure knows what people want.  (Again, this sounds really blasphemous...  But I don't mean it in a blasphemous way.)

Anyway, I have nothing against religion; I think it does a lot of good for a lot of people.  But I would like it more if people question more instead of relying on faith.  However faith is one of the main tenets for religion!!   No faith = no religion.  Can't we have more doubting Thomas-es around!  Interesting read: Jesus Made Me Puke by a Rolling Stones undercover journalist who infiltrated a fundamentalist Christian camp.  Go read it even though I know you religious-un-blasphemous-self doesn't like sound of the title.

I wish people think more, but most people do not have the time to think or for that matter, want to think.  How easy it is to live life accepting what others' say without questioning.  It is a simple life, without ironies, without contradictions and without a (personal) voice.